Need to tie up some lose ends...

In the last few weeks I have been feeling like a train wreck. I just can't seem to catch my breath or feel "normal." I am even getting heart palpitations. I don't know if it is anxiety from the holidays or serious psychosis is starting to set in. I know I shouldn't joke, especially after my last post with that psycho mother of poor Caylee.

No, I would never go down such a road. I am talking about my body feeling out of it; like maybe I'm so much of a wino that my body is losing ground. Maybe my liver is pleading with it to give it a break, or my gut begging for a vacation from all the sugar and cheese I have been inhaling. Maybe its more, possibly the old sad family badge of depression and anxiety setting in. I have just been feeling sluggish and sad. Sometimes even angry. I feel like I have no patience and frustration hits so quickly. The other day I just felt utterly unhappy. Not even my dear husband could cheer me up. It just comes and goes, comes and goes. Sometimes hanging around longer than I'd like. That's why I am starting to wonder...wondering if I need to go take my sad, sorry self to a doctor. Maybe I can't blame all my lack of sleep on his snoring. Maybe it even goes back to the days when our relationship was rocky or when I was feeling insecure. Maybe I haven't tied up all the lose ends that make me feel shitty.