Diet please!

Yes, so I have been eating like a pig lately. Not literally...ya know, I am totally not a mud fan but I just feel like I have been stuffing everything in sight in my face. Cookies, ice cream, hot dogs (ewww, too many pig references), bagels, cheese, ice cream, funnel cake...did I say ice cream?

Okay, so tomorrow, I promise myself to do 30 minutes of speed walking, 20 minutes of high cardio aerobics, 10 minutes of stretching, and 5 minutes of pilates. Wait a minute, on second thought, maybe I will spend 10 minutes of speed walking, 5 minutes of cardio, 3 minutes of stretching and skip the pilates...then I will have more time to research everything I can about Leptovox. One of the newest diet pills which claims you can lose up to 12 pounds in 3 days or it is free. And it helps with my skin, holy smokes! I am definitely going to need some time to check into this.

What I need...

A few things I really need:

1. a new haircut, dye job, heck a whole new head of hair (split ends are almost to China)
2. a better job; possibly in horticulture or wine tasting, you know, something less stressful
3. a nice new clear salad bowl, my sister stole my good one--jerkie
4. a new faucet in my kitchen, the damn thing has been leaking for weeks
5. a massage; preferably Swedish, performed by a tall dark man with huge muscles who speaks only Spanish because I really don't care what he has to say (is that asking too much?)

Just cause I was hungry

Pretzels with cream cheese in the middle
Celery with cream cheese
Carrots dipped in cream cheese
Strawberries
Pineapples

And wine of course....

PR Tag

I was tagged over at ZookLight for this meme. Yay, I love these things.

With this tag, this will help us get that PR and Authorities back! And for those who already have their PR, and Authorities, doing this tag will help you out more!

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Instructions:
1. Copy and paste this tag from "Start Here" to "End Here". (don't forget the image)
2. Place your blog's name with your URL at the end of the tag. If you have more than one blog, please add them too! Just make sure that you post this tag in all of your blogs.
3. Tag 5 blogs that is not yet in this post (just to avoid duplications)
4. This is the twist... Go to the 5 blogs that you tagged and comment on any of their posts. Why? So that search engines can crawl to your site.
5. Return to the Momhood Moments blog and leave a comment saying that you joined the tag together with the URL of the tag. I'll be checking on it and add you in the master list.

Momhood Moments Tags You List:

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I tag some of my last commentators (who don't appear to have been tagged yet...if you were already, sorry!):
Working Hard Mom
SAHM Ramblings
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A Little Piece of me
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A more convenient world

It amazes me how much more convenient the world is these days. You can buy things online, pay right there and have it shipped right to your door. It really can't get much easier than that. Well, unless you have someone else buy it for you, but then that's not fun, right? Even small companies nowadays make it easy to buy from them online. They use some service like authorize.net.

I basically only buy now from companies that make the payment and shipping process easy. If it takes too many prompts and fields, I go nuts and sometimes just quit it. Like they say, if they make the process smooth and simple, I in!

Oh well....

It has come to my attention that someone I didn't want reading this blog, apparently does. I guess I didn't make it all that secret on my computer. Yes, I think the hubs has found this. He made a comment last night that made it pretty evident he reads this.

I am not one for trying to delete my history or things like that. Still...I am a bit disappointed... I guess HE doesn't have anything better to do with his time. So he says he works all the time, NOT. He is busy looking up nonsense and reading blogs. So...I am not going to sign off but I am going to limit what I write here.

I thought this was a good place to share my feelings in a somewhat anonymous way. Now I have nowhere to do that. Oh well...

Oh joy

Last week my MIL was talking about going on vacation together as a family. *Cough* *spit* *barf*....oh yeah, sounds like fun. She thinks that would be so swell. The whole family, blissfully spending a week in their condo hotel, swimming together, eating together, holding hands while shopping together. Oh joy!

As you can see, I am not the least bit excited about such a proposal. Call me negative but with my relationship already on the rocks with the hubs...the kids being toddlers that they are of which staying confined in a 3 bedroom condo is like torture. I'd have to lug 10 bags of toys and things to keep the occupied...the grandparents will just leisurely walk around and then ask, well, why don't you want to go to that restaurant for dinner? Um, well, because the kids won't sit still there!

I guess I am just being whiney. I should suck it up and go. It's not like I don't need a vacation...I just wonder if it would really be a vacation with all of the nonsense I predict to occur.

Insecurity

I never thought of myself as someone insecure...until now. I don't know if it is just that combination of coincidental things that happen where all the planets align in some way that make me feel different or truly, I am just opening my eyes to it. I just realized recently that I feel like no one likes me. I feel like my friends really don't give a damn. I feel like people think I am annoying.

Either that or I choose friends that are really not that involved or caring. I am sure I am just being whiney here...but, um.... hello, I am whiney momma! All kidding aside though, at times it does scare me. It scares me that people seem to treat me like I am not there. Like I am a ghost. When I do open my mouth, I feel like they almost sigh and breathe relief when I walk away. Is this true? What have I done? I don't friggin know. Am I one of those annoying people that doesn't know I am annoying?

For Christ's sake!

I remember one afternoon at a birthday party for one of my friend's kids, another friend.... let's call him Joe, was commenting back to me and said this, "not everyone can be as perfect as you." I swear, that comment will never leave me. That comment stung me like a swarm of nasty bees. I immediately thought in response, "since when do I act like I think I am perfect?" I felt shocked, ashamed, and bitter that he thought of me that way.

That also was the last time I looked that friend in the eye. The relationship I had with this friend is certainly more complicated than that comment but there really was something that made me realize, OMG, that is what he thinks of me? Is that what other people think of me? Am I walking around talking like I am the most perfect thing in the world? Does that annoy the shit out of people?

So hence, my insecurity. Lately, I feel so self-conscious, I almost don't want to speak to my friends. I teeter between wanting to get more involved with them and wanting to avoid them like the plague. How do I find out where I stand here? Do I ask someone or just assume I am taking one person's comment too far?

You just never know...

There are a lot of things in life that you never know when you'll need them. How many times do you buy something just in case? I have a first aid kit in my car and in my house, just in case. I have shout wipes in my purse, just in case. I bought 3 extra cases of water and lots of cans of soup for our basement, just in case.

It's true, we live in a just in case kind of world. Think about it, there is even something such as travel health insurance, you got it, just in case. I personally think it is a good idea. I am not one of those fly-by-the-seat of my pants kind of gals. I like to know things will be taken care of...should something happen. I don't consider myself a pessimist, only highly prepared. Others might disagree but truly, I feel better knowing I have Ipecac in my cabinet, even though I hope my child never ingests anything bad. It doesn't make any excuse not to pay close attention and lock up chemicals, it just makes me feel better should the absolute worst thing ever happen.

How dirty are your hands?

I remember when I worked in a college biology lab and we once did an experiment where we asked several students to wash their hands and then wipe them on a petri dish. We also had several students who had not wash their hands wipe on them as well. We incubated the plates overnight and took a look the next day.

What did we find? Yuck, yuck and more yuck. Tons of bacteria, yeast and who knows what else. It was true that the hand washed hands had less bacteria on their petri plates but believe me, a lot of bacteria was still there. The unwashed hands were horrendous. It definitely made me think twice about how I washed my hands.

Did you know there is a recommended time for washing your 15-20 seconds straight? That is like singing Happy Birthday twice. How long do you wash your hands?

Fresh air, fresh outlook

I am finally having a really good week. Really good. I don't know what has spawned optimism in me but I feel like I am finally on the right track. Whatever track that might be. I guess it is just that I am managing my work better and that the relationship counseling has helped. We go once a week and I am finally starting to feel some peace. We have basically had no major arguments. No anger in the house and I am letting go of the trust issues a little too. I think I am just tired of carrying all the misery around with me.

Maybe that's it. Maybe I feel like a weight has been lifted. Now I feel like going out and doing something different, like decorating, maybe buying some nice outdoor furniture, and even some of those neat little lanterns and nice summer tablecloth to spruce up the patio. I love my patio. I have to admit, I have the nicest perennial garden this side of town. It's still filling in but the blooms are coming!

Don't slack off on having fun

I have totally been slacking lately, not just on blogging, but keeping up with everything. I haven't been dancing lately, I haven't been reading lately, I haven't been playing my PS2, I even haven't been sitting outside with my feet up. I should be ashamed! Having fun should be a priority in life. We should make a point to do fun things! I mean, why not? Seriously, we spend so much time making sure we clean our houses, do our work, take care of everyone else so why don't we make it mandatory to have fun and relax some time!

Am I having a day or what?

So this morning, I tripped down the stairs, spilled coffee grounds everywhere, put my cat's food bowl in the frig instead of the left over food (and then wondered for 5 minutes why the damned thing keep scratching at my feet), and then tried to log on to blog 3 times and wondered why it wouldn't work...

then realized, I kept typing hineymomma...instead of whineymomma.

Yes, I am a hiney today.

Be consumer aware

If you are thinking of getting Phentermine without a prescription, make sure you do all your homework first. Diet pills are a tricky thing and it is always good to weigh all of your options and know which ones are effective but most importantly, safe! Remember, a lot of online places would just love to overcharge you for a product and have no reasons to keep safety into check. Be consumer aware!

Go for the best buy

I hate June! It's Father's Day, it's birthdays, its when all my quarterly bills come flying in...so I really need to get a better handle on my budget. I always have good intentions but I always forget to shop wisely. I know that I should cut the coupons but I just either forget them or am too in a rush to look for the items specifically.

I do have every intention though for the kid's birthdays to really try to find the best buy for their toys. It's funny but I used to just buy things on a whim and not really look so much at the dollars and cents but now that I realize there is a big difference, depending on where you shop. I totally agree that you need to check the flyers, go online and do all price comparisons. Heck, if you buy 5 things and you will save $30 that is good!

Hindsight

So this past week, I had my counselor appointment alone. Now that we have a new one, she is basically starting over with us and recommended that we each have our own separate appointment so that she can really get to know us. The husband has his last week and for some reason he came home glowing. I, on the other hand, came home depressed after my session.

I don't know why but once I started talking to her alone, I started becoming very fatalistic about our relationship. The memories of all the things that hurt me just welled up and started compiling. I started thinking, "why did I marry this man?" I mean, I knew what he was like before I married him. So why am I sitting here today, distraught that are relationship is in the dumps? Why do we think that things will change once we get married, or after we have kids? People are who they are...

I feel like I deserve a vacation alone to get my mind all sorted out, maybe I should start looking into some nice St. Barts villa rentals. With 22 beaches, sounds like my kind of place.

Veggie garden

Here's a little snapshot of my veggie garden! The plants are still little but I am hoping for lots of growth soon...I can't wait to start picking my vegetables.

I am dying to make a veggie salad sandwich with a little balsamic vinegar!

Putting it all together

I am so looking forward to this weekend. I am going dancing and I am already picking out my outfit! Yeah, it takes me days.

Being a mom, I am slightly out of style these days...I just don't spend as much time trying to put something together for myself. I have never been one with knowing how to accessorize. Lately though, I have been eying up getting some new sparkly things. I think even just adding a nice gold bangle and maybe some fancy earrings might do the trick. Then I need to focus on the right shoes! Something with a bit of a heel but not over the top; I do want to dance after all!

Bliss Nipple Cream Recall

This caught my eye only because of the name...it's called "Mommy's Bliss Nipple Cream." Apparently though, this "bliss" cream has some nasty chemicals that is really bad for babies. I mean, I want to know why the company (MOM Enterprises)would DARE market a product for your cracked nipples from breastfeeding that is not even safe for infants!

If you are using this stuff, the FDA advises you to stop since it contains Chlorphenesin, a chemical that relaxes skeletal muscle and can depress the central nervous system and cause respiratory depression (slow or shallow breathing) in infants.

It also contains Phenoxyethanol, which is a preservative that is primarily used in cosmetics and medications. It also can depress the central nervous system and may cause vomiting and diarrhea, which can lead to dehydration in infants.

Just hot

This is one of my new favorite actors...Chris Evans from Fantastic Four. All I can say is..."yum" and how I'd like to see his hot bod wearing only a pair of 5.11 Shorts
and perhaps and a cool pair of flip flops. Nothing else.

He is Italian and Irish...me too! Now he's a little younger than me...like 5 years younger but that's okay. He really is such a cutie and I can't believe I have never really noticed him before. I hope is in a lot more movies to come!

Going o'natural

Lately I have been thinking about becoming a full fledge vegetarian. I am just thinking that I would rather stick to more natural foods. Everything these days seems so processed. I just want to pluck my food off a tree or a bush and eat. I actually started my own garden this year and it is looking good. I can't wait til I really start getting some veggies though big enough to eat though. I am a big fan of grilled veggies. A little salt and pepper, olive oil and garlic on the veggies, wrap in tinfoil and grill....so good.

For the last couple weeks, I have cut out all red meat. I am starting to feel better. I really want to go all the way though and eliminate chicken as well. I think I'll keep fish around, but just limit it. I just want to feel healthier.