Missing something

I was deep in thought this morning...after having nightmares about being late, forgetting my homework, going to the wrong classroom. I have no idea why I keep dreaming of college days. Although, I wasn't even like that in college. I was always on time, always prepared for class. Something though must be nagging me about something I "missed" in college. Something that was beyond me, that maybe I wasn't trying hard enough. I made it by but unfortunately as a C+ student.

Every once in awhile I wish I could just go back. Study more, have my goals more defined. I was undeclared until mid-sophomore year. Then I scrambled like hell to complete the Biology bachelor program to make it in 4 years. As if the 5 year plan was a big deal. Actually, most of my friends at the time were on the 5 year plan. I don't know why I tried to kill myself with work. I took 18 credits a semester and summer classes in between. It was not pretty. I was constantly on the go....kind of like now. I wonder why I don't ever take time to slow down. Maybe even now, I am still missing something in life...