Hindsight

So this past week, I had my counselor appointment alone. Now that we have a new one, she is basically starting over with us and recommended that we each have our own separate appointment so that she can really get to know us. The husband has his last week and for some reason he came home glowing. I, on the other hand, came home depressed after my session.

I don't know why but once I started talking to her alone, I started becoming very fatalistic about our relationship. The memories of all the things that hurt me just welled up and started compiling. I started thinking, "why did I marry this man?" I mean, I knew what he was like before I married him. So why am I sitting here today, distraught that are relationship is in the dumps? Why do we think that things will change once we get married, or after we have kids? People are who they are...

I feel like I deserve a vacation alone to get my mind all sorted out, maybe I should start looking into some nice St. Barts villa rentals. With 22 beaches, sounds like my kind of place.